MaryAlice Musings and More

Last week I was feeling the "speed of light" feeling about the summer days, this week although busy and lots of things to do, I am experiencing the expansiveness of each day.  The weather has been quite lovely, somewhat cooler than normal, but the hot sun still feels warm on my cheeks.  I have been eating out of doors many days,  and enjoying a cup of coffee and paper in the morning sun.  It is the last days of July and my body has settled into the rhythms of the light, the position of the sun, the buzzing of the bees, and the birds singing wildly.  I have taken several Fridays off of work and enjoy the stretch of the weekend,  summer trips are planned, and a longer time off in September.  What luxury, how lucky I am to be able to have these kinds of choices.  I spend my workdays focused on how people can be a part of our workforce, can have health insurance, coordinated self directed care - people make jokes about pushing people into work.  I have noticed over a number of ye...

I am in my 11th month of blogging.  It all started as a way for me to share my experiences as I prepared for and recovered from throat and nose surgery for my sleep apnea.  I wanted to connect and to find a way to share my process of recovery.  This desire to somehow create a way for someone else to read my words, and with the reality that I have hardly any idea of the ways this reading on a "website" would touch something in you or if it would at all.   It has been risky feeling at times to share, some people have asked if I am worried about doing a blog, does it feel safe?  Blogging for me has felt like a way to pause, a reflection, less of a time to tell a full story, more of way to share a question to explore a discovery, to acknowledge an appreciation.   I was worried that I had lost my urge my desire to tap away at this keyboard-blogging away, but the urge returns.  My awareness of cycles, my ability to disclose even within myself opens and closes. Summer days continue ...

I am struck by how few moments there are where I  experience that hardly moving moment, that evokes the lazy, hazy days of summer.  I feel a catch in my throat and an opening in my heart as I experience glimpses of the endless summer.   These moments seem fleeting, but when I catch one oh my-how precious.  I find myself this summer wondering to within and out loud to others, what has happened to the slowing down of inside work,  of the recognition in the workplace that vacations are happening, work loads adjusted, that there is this time for rejuvenation, for appreciating and adjusting to the light, to the heat, to the season of growing.   For me my more internal moments of sharing have felt less accessible, I have these pull and urge to just be in the moment, to enjoy summer.  There has been lots of outside activities, enjoying music, my patio, outdoor eating and drinking, laughing, and connecting.   Blogging seemed out of touch, what of my experience do I want to touch with yours?  A...