The Experience of Blogging

I am in my 11th month of blogging.  It all started as a way for me to share my experiences as I prepared for and recovered from throat and nose surgery for my sleep apnea.  I wanted to connect and to find a way to share my process of recovery.  This desire to somehow create a way for someone else to read my words, and with the reality that I have hardly any idea of the ways this reading on a "website" would touch something in you or if it would at all.  

It has been risky feeling at times to share, some people have asked if I am worried about doing a blog, does it feel safe?  Blogging for me has felt like a way to pause, a reflection, less of a time to tell a full story, more of way to share a question to explore a discovery, to acknowledge an appreciation.  

I was worried that I had lost my urge my desire to tap away at this keyboard-blogging away, but the urge returns.  My awareness of cycles, my ability to disclose even within myself opens and closes.

Summer days continue to expand, some days seem so full and long, and then weeks fleet by.  The markets are full of vegetables, flowers, cheese, and people connecting food with the experience.  I have had some brief times away - and yearn for more.  Being in the woods, on the hills, away from the city an always satisfying experience.   I am thinking, planning where to go to capture the warmth the sun when it is cold and dark here.  I am remembering how much I love the fall.  And I am looking forward to the state fair!  Wondering what and if I will enter anything in creative arts!  Maybe an altered book, a felted bowl, who knows!  Maybe I will let that percolate for another year, and really work through in myself what expression of me I want to show up at the fair next year!  

For today, the stillness in so satisfying, the wind is barely moving, the birds even seem hushed.  I have taken time from work so that I can attempt to gain a little more balance, to recover from whatever is making me feel a little punk.  How amazing that musings and more seem to be a necessary part of my medicine.