MaryAlice Musings and More

Well, here is something I know after my second day back into the world of work.  Naps are essential.  After 4-5 hrs.  it is more than time to head back home and rest.  Had a massage this afternoon, and she worked many knots from the back of my neck.  I am a little noodle and glad that energy is flowing.  It's a good time to notice my energy,  look forward, and say goodnight.  

Well, I did it,  I went off to work at 9:30 this a.m. and was back home shortly after 2:30 and was napping by 3:15.  The enthusiasm, smiles, welcoming that I received was absolutely heart warming.  People were expressing how quickly the month had flown by, means folks were not have days where there wasn't much to do!  The staff I work with have done such an great job while I have been gone, and folks are feeling good about the work they are doing and the ways that it helps to support people with disabilities in their day to day lives.  What a wonderful thing to be so proud of the folks that you work with.  The care that I have felt is the same stuff they have for their colleagues and for the people of Minnesota.  Great Job PTE-DMIE-DLL --- you all know who you are!  People helped me to get out the door, I have a very good meeting with my Director at the end of my time, and as we were ending it was clear that the energy plug had been pulled and I was deflating quickly.  This means b...

I woke up this morning and it was still dark, and I laid in bed, thinking about my yesterday and noticing how my body felt, and then being a Type 6 in the Enneagram World - I found myself worrying about why I was waking up in the middle of the night.  I took a few breaths and decided to turn over and look at the clock.  It was 6 a.m.  -- amazing!  I was not reverting back to waking up numerous times in the night - I was awake because my body was ready to be awake!  So what does rested mean?  I got out the dictionary this morning to check it out. (adj) rested: not tired; refreshed as by sleeping or relaxing I am rested, and am beginning to have body memory of what refreshed means.  What a metaphor, as this part of world moves toward the dark, and a time of slumber and rest.  I am learning how to be rested  The mist and fog of the morning gently welcoming me into another day.

Today the garage roof was completed.  Those guys walked up and down the ladder and on the roof with such nimbleness, it was as if they were floating just above it all, and they swept the inside of the garage which had all the little brittle pieces of my very old old roof.  So now I am matched, and let's hope that Bob the painter arrives on Monday, and that my garage will be not only looking great, but ready for winter, and NO leaks inside!   I picked up Myah early this afternoon for an overnight stay, it was Luke's turn and he was ready to come, but his Mom was going to be at work all afternoon and evening, and he was ready for some Dad bonding time, so Myah says please could she come,  win win for me, for her, and for Luke.  When she got in the car I asked what did she think Luke and Dad would be doing today, and she said, " Oh, I think they are going to sit around in their underwear and watch TV tonight."  Clearly a guy thing!   And what do the gals do?  Myah tried ...

I have been exploring other blogs, as it has been several weeks for me - and outside of some white light pain days, I have managed to let something move through me, out my fingers, onto the keyboard and here it is!   Mark Siegel's blog is a great read,  The 19th Floor (I don't know how to hyperlink yet - so just google away!)  The 37 days,  a blog by Patti Digh--she just wrote a book about her blog called life is a verb.  Both these bloggers have a wry and wonderful sense of humor -- which I am hoping to improve upon for myself.   It is amazing that we have this whole way in which we communicate out there, and who knows who is reading this, its like pebbles in the water --- wonder what effect the ripples will have. I watched "the debate" with my friend Jane --- Obama's civility, his understanding of judgement, and his sense of how to be strategic, not forgetting what we are attempting to impact -- all pluses for me.  I am sure there will be much more said -- and n...

I am going to start back to work part time next week.  See how it goes.  I am very aware that I am still healing in so many ways, and my energy is still erratic - so I am so appreciative and have such gratitude that I am able to take the time I need to recover and recuperate.  I have been thinking a lot about the women who have to go back to work way before they are ready, and they come home exhausted and have to do all the things necessary for their households.  That I have insurance and sick leave --- it is quite an indictment of our country that I have feel "lucky" to have these fundamental supports.   In the midst of the political stirrings and realities there is something deeper more attached to my heart that is present as I heal.  I have so appreciated my backyard patio, and while sitting in the sun, I noticed my neighborhood cardinal in a bush along the lot line.  He is so brilliant red, and the leaves are so very green. It took a moment for me to recognize what I was ...

I am sure glad that I am in such good shape.  The twists and turns of the political races could lead to whiplash - which is bad for my throat and nose!   It sure seems like when the winds blow Obama's way - there is no end to what those folks in power will do.  I want to hear the debates, I think that this is the way that we can step back from the orchestrated, bought, manipulated and controlled commercials, ads, and more.  Why wouldn't the presidential candidates want to be presidential and stand up in front of the nation and let us know their truth.   Thankfully, Obama not only says that there should be the debate, he acknowledges that who could be most effective are their economic staff.  I don't think anyone had invited John McCain to stop the "no talk" bus and rush back to Washington, where for the first time in 22 years John would have to listen and learn about regulatory power.   Then there is the subtext that people keep poking their finger in and not real...